Eminem, real name Marshall Mathers, is opening up about the addiction that nearly killed him: pills. In a new documentary called “How To Make Money Selling Drugs,” the 40-year-old recalls how he didn’t realize how close his addiction to Vicodin, Xanax and Valium brought him to death.
“When I took my first Vicodin, it was like this feeling of ‘Ahh.’ Like everything was not only mellow, but [I] didn’t feel any pain,” he says in the film. “I don’t know at what point exactly it started to be a problem. I just remember liking it more and more. People tried to tell me that I had a problem.”
He continues, “I would say ‘Get that f***ing person outta here. I can’t believe they said that s*** to me. I’m not out there shooting heroin. I’m not f***ing out there putting coke up my nose. I’m not smoking crack.”
The turning point for Eminem’s addiction was one day when he was hospitalized on the brink of death. Realizing how close he was to leaving his children, he smartened up.
“Had I got to the hospital about two hours later, I would have died,” he says. “My organs were shutting down. My liver, kidneys, everything. They were gonna have to put me on dialysis. They didn’t think I was gonna make it. My bottom was gonna be death.”
Fortunately Eminem got his life back on track. He did have a relapse but eventually detoxed, and now says he has his pill addiction under control. “I couldn’t believe that anybody could be naturally happy without being on something. So I would say to anybody, ‘It does get better,'” he says.