kaitlin barnaby exit interview big brother 15 'Big Brother 15's' Kaitlin Barnaby is 'not defending' Aaryn or GinaMarie at allKaitlin Barnaby was the first female houseguest evicted from the “Big Brother 15” house. She tells Zap2it that she wishes she had aligned differently and that she can’t defend the things her alliance-mates said.

Are you glad you went on “Big Brother,” even though you went home fairly early?

“Oh my gosh, it was the best experience I’ve ever had in my life. Thank you to CBS for choosing me out of thousands of people to be a part of that.”

Do you have plans to try to see Jeremy outside the house? Do you think a relationship will form?

“You know, I’m open to it. We definitely live states away, but I’m going to stay in contact with him. I definitely had a connection with him, he was my best companion and best friend in that house, so I’m definitely open-minded about it.”

We don’t know how much you’ve seen, but Aaryn and GinaMarie in particular have been getting a lot of heat about the stuff they’ve said in the house — GinaMarie’s used the n-word, they’ve both made comments about Helen making them some rice or straightening out her eyes. Even you have said that Candice’s “black side” was coming out when she got confrontational. What’s your response to that?

“There were parts of that that I was unaware of and I was shocked that that’s even in Aaryn and GinaMarie’s personalities. To my comment, Candice was always joking around that she had a ‘white side’ and a ‘black side’ to her because she’s mixed [race]. The night she was getting upset, that’s the only reason I said that. It was not derogatory in any way. Candice and I are on great terms. It was definitely inappropriate on Aaryn and GinaMarie’s behalf, I’m not defending them at all. There were definitely times when I told them to put that to bed, but then there are other times when you just kind of awkwardly laugh through it. I was definitely guilty by association.”

It can be hard to speak up in situations like that, especially when you’re playing a game.

“Aaryn was definitely the leader of our wolf pack, how much could I really yell at her? I think she knows she’s in the wrong and she’s definitely upset about it.”

We’ve made it a point to mention other things beside the racist comments — using the c-word about women, or using the f-word about gay men. Do you think that should receive as much attention as the racism?

“Probably not as much as the racism, but it’s definitely not the best terms to be using. I know that the f-word towards gay people was used multiple times and I yelled at people. I also yelled at people using the r-word for mentally challenged people because it’s ridiculous. I told them is this really the way you want to be on national TV? It was very inappropriate. I think Spencer — I don’t know if it necessarily had anything to do with the way he was raised or if he’s from the South — but I think he needed a bit of a muzzle when he talked”

Spencer definitely said some stuff about women and gays that raised our eyebrows.

“He is a very interesting and untrustworthy person, that’s all I’ll say.”

Do you wish you had aligned with different people?

“Yes and no. To get farther in the game, yes. With Jeremy, I think I would really have liked for him to stay in an alliance of mine. But Aaryn, I probably would’ve chosen somebody different. But I gave her my loyalty on day 2. I tried to stay as loyal as possible. I think that was part of my downfall.”

Have you formed friendships you’ll keep outside the game?

“I think Jeremy is definitely a strong one. I’m not entirely sure. I mean, everybody in that house you form a bond with. It’s a family, it’s a connection that nobody else will ever understand. I think I’ll stay in contact with all of them in some way, especially with the social media we have nowadays. They are all great people in their own ways, and the ‘Big Brother’ game brings out bad sides of them.”

Is there anything you wish you had done differently in terms of your game play?

“Besides aligning with other people? I mean, I played as hard as I could. People were asking me if I should throw things and that’s just not in me. I came there to compete and the competitions were my favorite part. Maybe tamed my relationship with Jeremy a little more behind closed doors. But it is what it is and I don’t regret anything.”

Who do you think is the strongest player in the house right now?

“As of right now, I would say Helen or McCrae have a great chance of taking this whole thing.”

We just wrote that we think Helen is in an excellent position.

“She is so intelligent and I hope she does win this for her family, I told her that right before I left, I said I hope you win this.”

Do you think McCrae will be better off with Amanda gone?

“I think he’s kind of sitting pretty with Amanda right now, because Amanda is doing all the manipulative and conniving parts in the house. She’s getting a little too aggressive, though, but they are masterminding this house. They’re sitting way too comfortable. I hope she goes next, to be honest. I think he has a better chance of staying later down the road when she’s gone.”

Who do you think is the weakest in the house right now?

“I would say Spencer. Spencer is a huge floater and he is very untrustworthy. Everybody in the house knows this.”

Would you go back on “Big Brother” if they asked?

“100 percent. Yes.”

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