While Demi Lovato has been pretty open in discussing her eating disorder and trip to rehab, but in the August issue of Self magazine she discusses the things that made her cut herself for the first time.
The new “X Factor” judge answers a series of questions from readers ranging from what it’s like to work on the FOX show (“so much fun!”) to what she learned in rehab. On the latter point, she says, “I’ve spent the past two years getting over an eating disorder and issues like self-harming and bipolar disorder. Unlike a person who doesn’t have these problems, I have to work on this stuff every day. I’m reminded of that whenever I eat or feel down.”
More from the Self interview:
On self-harming: “There were times I felt so anxious, almost like I was crawling out of my skin, that if I didn’t do something physical to match the way I felt inside, I would explode. I cut myself to take my mind off that. I just didn’t care what happened. I had no fear.”
Her relationship with fellow former Disney star Selena Gomez: “Selena and I aren’t as close as we used to be, but she’ll always have a place in my heart.”
Being diagnosed as bipolar: “Finding out I had a real emotional disorder helped me put together the pieces of the puzzle. I remember being on my tour bus thinking, ‘My life is so awesome right now, but I’m so depressed.’ Then, a few days later, I’d be on top of the world. It was really confusing. When I got diagnosed, my life made more sense.”
Working on being happy: “You can choose to work toward happiness or not. I used to expect it to come to me, but it takes more than seeing a therapist once a week. I make time for myself and meditate. And I haven’t used my cell in three months! Subconsciously, it was a crutch. When a room gets quiet, what do you do? Grab your phone! Now I can sit and have conversations with people.”